Girl.
I will always treat you as though you are leaving me because I know that at any moment, you could. But I am happy - a real happiness that nobody can manipulate or take away. I will fight for you through everything that I do because of the happiness you have given me. You are all that I want, just as I want to be all that you want in the opposite sex. My band is my life, my faith is my life, and you are working your way in more and more each day. You’ve claimed your place and I don’t want it to be vacant. I pray everyday that many things in my life remain consistent and you’re first on the list. Thank you for taking me in for all that I am, but mostly, for all that I am not.
Amber ♥
Nobody knows for sure if God is or isn’t real. Evidence to seeing God is evident in my life because of my faith, but anybody else can say the opposite due to a lack of faith in God or a strong faith in not believing. I grew up in church and it never showed me God because at the end of the day, we all need to see God on our own. Most of the people in my life who I love the most don’t share the same faith as me, but that doesn’t mean that they are terrible people or that they are wrong. It makes me sad to think that when we die, we are buried and we become soil. I don’t want to believe that and I don’t because I have so much more to stride for in my life. If I was to die and become nothing, then I might as well kill myself, right? But why is it that the faith of Jesus Christ has carried through thousands of years and is still enormously popular today? If God isn’t real, how is our existence as pretty as it is? I don’t ever want to believe that our world is the product of an accident. I don’t ever want to believe that everything in my life is going to vanish because I will become soil after my death. I refuse to believe that those I’ve lost to death are simply buried or burned, never to live again.
Look, the bottom line is that nobody can be 100% certain of anything in this world that isn’t tangible. But I believe that God is in everything I do and see in the world. I believe that we walk on a canvas of God’s divine creation because science can’t give a better explanation. Fight with me or argue with me all you want but I would rather die a liar who tried than to stand before a God that I denied my entire life.
This picture blew up on Facebook, so I’d figured ya’ll might like it. This is my beautiful girlfriend Amber. She makes me extremely happy. Not a day will go by that I don’t feel unworthy to be in the company of such an amazing human being.
Don’t abandon the music you used to love because it isn’t cool anymore. I miss the days before everybody had a huge ego over music in the scene. If you loved Pantera or Slipknot, still jam them because they made you who you are as a listener. I listened to System of a Down with my best friend and girlfriend while we all sang and laughed in the car because it is something that we all, at some point, loved and thought was awesome. Hell, I still do! I get so bummed out when kids listen to so much deathcore and beatdown stuff, then when everybody hops on the hardcore bandwagon, they pretend that The Acacia Strain was never their favorite or that WhiteChapel was the heaviest thing they’d ever heard. I don’t find that cool, I find that to be weak.
